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if anyone knows anyone who is 21+ and would like to buy the ingredients...please let me know!

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made some awesome chicken and dumpling soup!

it was so simple and so tasty. i should make it more often (:

things that are easy to make:

spaghetti.
chicken and dumplings.
rice and eggs.

making that soup was the highlight of my day. (:

feeling extremely unmotivated at this moment.

i'm not tired. i don't want to go upstairs. all i want to do is cry.

friday is so close.

i'm so stubborn and he's so oblivious.

i'm trying to find the perfect layout for my upcoming project.

i need to clean the bedroom.

i need a plastic container that has pull out drawers.

i wonder if big lots has any?

i'm really enjoying feeling sorry for myself.

i looked online at walmart and they have what i want. time to see if big lots has anything. hopefully for cheaper.

oh don't forget about target.

well target had something similar but not quite it.

is there a kmart here?

i looked and its too far.

i guess i'll just have to go to walmart. i guess i'll go to bed now.

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No english class today. I found out it was cancelled when I was getting a drink before heading up the stairs and other people in my class were coming downstairs. That's cool but now I should study for calculus...but I don't feel like it.. ughh.

Lately I feel pretty apathetic about school and homework. I don't know why. Well, I look forward to my English class...I guess my other classes aren't that exciting. Oh well.

This post is pretty short but I need to study for Calculus now.

(at least I don't work today! :D)

sometimes i would really like to scream. just scream really fucking loud and rip out hair and throw dishes. break things and just be done with it.

in your head its one way and in mine its another, no chance to explain because you've already made up your mind so whatever. sleep alone.

right now i'm just so fucking angry and i just want to write about it.

no comments please.

plain and simple you're fucking lazy, thirty seconds of your life will not be missed. can't even share something with you but what the fuck ever, it doesn't matter anymore. well i mean. it does since i'm angry about it. by this time tomorrow it won't mean a thing, i'm sure.

i mean, all i do is just do this to fight with you, huh?

yep. you're just absolutely correct.

i'm not sure what hurts more.

being upset at each other or the fact that you never came downstairs to come talk to me.

if i could be a photographer, that'd be great.

this would be my life:

point.

click.

flash.

develop.

it sounds so very simple. and very serene. i could work from home. i could work anywhere i want to. but..who would want my photographs?

most photographers make a living on taking senior portraits. sigh. photogrpahy is a naive career choice. senior portraits or dance portraits. and the dance portraits are all the same. there's photography, and there's photography.

i dunno. i guess i was trying to make it sound more meaningful than it might be.

hm. i think i found my new year's resolution for next year. i'll reveal that later (and see whether or not i stick to that. hahahahaha.)

anyways i think it would just be nice to be able to stay home and take care of my child and not work (away from home) but that is very unrealistic especially now, when it's almost impossible to live on a single source of income for a family. if i only have two kids it might be possible...but then we'd be stretching it. i'm not good at saving so i'll have to teach my kids early on the importance of saving and things like that.

i feel a little disappointed in myself for writing about something like this. but oh well. i do this for myself.

it'd also be nice to be a published writer, but i'm not all that into english. i just like writing my stories. does anyone have a favorite story of mine?

it's three am and i have work at eleven and i planned on waking up at nine am...so that's less than six hours of sleep so i should probably go to bed soon.

we'll see how that goes.

did you see the moon tonight? it was nicely round, but i don't know if it was a full moon or not. there's something pleasing about a full moon. a moon that has had its filled and is nicely plump. it's a very positive image. it's funny though, a lot of people think the full moon makes people more prone to being crazy and animals too. maybe they feel the subtle tug on the earth. probably not.

well. good night. (: